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| Time: | 7:39 pm. |
| Mood: |  amused. |
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cracking up today..... some things are just too amusing.
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excited about the concert. yay.
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i just wonder what to do in this situation..
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Monday, February 23rd, 2009
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it has been over three years since i updated this thing..
ive looked at it every now and then, when i remembered that i had one.. just to see who still used it..
so many things have changed in the past three years. SO MANY.
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Sunday, February 5th, 2006
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ive CHANGED MY PHONE NUMBER.. please dont call any cell phone or home phone number that you have had for me..
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Tuesday, January 3rd, 2006
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well then.. stuffs been happening..
my brother and heather got here on my birthday and they left yesterday.. i really liked them being here.. i love them..
my dad is home!! that is super exciting.. hes finally home.. the whole family went to the ceremony.. there were a lot of people.. and the day that he got home we celebrated our family christmas, christmas with our grandparents and stuff, my birthday, and new years eve.. we did it all in one day.. we wanted my brother and heather to be here with us when we did all of those things..
sandi is getting married in 11 days.. and thats exciting.. i cant wait to see this wedding.. i know that a lot of planning went into it and im excited to see how it turns out.. yay!!
so i need to start getting my room together and stuff..
im tired.
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Monday, December 26th, 2005
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i havent updated in awhile so i thought i would..
stuff has been going on..
the other day i cleaned alot in the house because my aunt and uncle were in town and we thought that they were coming to the house.. it turns out that we went to visit them instead.. it was really exciting to see them.. i like hanging out with them.. i love going to visit them.. they live so far away..
we did all that cleaning and then they didnt even end up coming here.. lol.. but its ok because the house needed to be cleaned anyway..
i cleaned up my room a little.. and i kind of tried to start packing up my stuff again.. i still havent unpacked everything that i brought back from the dorm yet.. i think ill just leave it packed.. haha..
this year kind of went by fast.. or it feels like it anyway.. its almost my birthday again.. wow..
christmas eve was fun.. i got to hang out with my friend and her family.. it was good times..
christmas was good too..
sandi is getting married in like two weeks and some change.. that is so exciting!
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Thursday, December 8th, 2005
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| Subject: | hmm.. |
| Time: | 12:34 am. |
| Mood: | excited about sandis wedding... | | Music: | that song that reminds me of graduation... |
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its been awhile since i updated this thing..
i guess that alot has been going on, but at the same time nothing at all has been going on..
today i finally packed up all my things and moved out of the dorm.. i came home last week, but i still hadnt taken everything home and checked out and turned in my keys and stuff.. i did that today.. and it felt rather good..
i also took an exam today.. meaning that it is like 4 classes down and one to go.. not so much did i have an exam in all 4 classes.. but theyre over..
so i noticed yesterday that i have no clue what is going on in anyones lives anymore.. lol.. and that i guess not alot of people have a clue whats going on in mine..
im ready to do some redecorating.. i am soo ready.. too bad i cant do everything that i want or am planning to do for at least a couple more months.. im excited about it though..
i need to find room for all of the stuff that i just brought back from the dorm..
sandis moving into her house.. remodeling and stuff is taking place right now i guess.. i cant wait to see it all when its finished.. thats so exciting for me.. i cant believe that shes getting married in like a month and a couple of days.. that excites me.. wow..
i want it to be her wedding already.. yay!!
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Friday, November 25th, 2005
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| Time: | 9:48 pm. |
| Mood: |  hungry. | | Music: | some music from the movie... |
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wow.. i havent updated in quite some time..
this semester of school is almost over.. im glad.. im ready to come home..
i ran into ashley the other day at walmart when she was returning her giaganto turkey for a bigger one!! thats alot of turkey.. lol.. and that was great cuz i super miss ashley.. i miss seeing her everyday and our random photo shoots and our mexican choo choo games.. lol.. i love ashley.. i miss her!
and then there was thanksgiving.. yum! i like thanksgiving..
we went shopping this morning.. my lips are chapped because me, my sister, and my cousin got dropped off at target at like 515 and they didnt open until 600 and my mom went to kohls while we waited..
it was fun though.. an interesting day..
im hungry..
im going to go watch polar express now..
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Thursday, November 10th, 2005
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| Time: | 11:08 am. |
| Mood: |  melancholy. | | Music: | i will remember you... |
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so todays a weird day.. i had this crazy dream last night.. im back at school, and deffiniteley not enjoying it.. but its ok.. there are only a few weeks left and the semester is over..
so anyway..
the funeral was beautiful..
i took pictures from his house.. pictures of him and my brother.. pictures of him and my brothers fiance.. pictures of him and his family..
he was so young..
when we were in the cemetery we were looking at headstones and there were like whole rows of soldiers killed in 2005.. and alot of them were young.. it was so horrible..
paintball, pirates, and nights of falling asleep to the matrix will never be the same again..
when i looked around that cemetery, the sight just took my breathe away.. so many headstones.. so many soldiers..
at the viewing where the family lines up for you to talk to before you go up to the casket, it was his dad, his mom, his sister, then my brother, (and his two little brothers were sitting down..) and i held it together pretty good until i got to the mom.. then i cried hard.. and then hugging my brothers fiance wasnt as bad.. but then i got to my brother.. and.. i just fell apart.. it was so horrible.. i feel so bad for the whole family..
so alot of things went on over the two days that we were there, but ill just not talk about them..
im going to go for now..
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Monday, October 31st, 2005
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| Time: | 10:49 am. |
| Mood: | shattered... | | Music: | ................ |
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please pray for my family (ESPECIALLY my brother) and his fiances family..
we lost someone EXTREMELY dear to us..
he was very loved and will always be remembered dearly..
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Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
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| Subject: | i miss you! |
| Time: | 5:41 pm. |
| Mood: |  mixed moods.. | | Music: | music on tv. |
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wow.. so i havent updated this thing in like 3 weeks..
every day is pretty much the same here at school.. i wake up and go to work or class.. and then class or work.. and somewhere in between i get some food.. then when the day of work and school and getting food is over, i go back to the dorm and just hang out..
its super cold outside.. id like some hot chocolate.. and some soup.. thatd be yummy.. the only bad thing about weather change is that sometimes you get sick..
things have been going on.. erin and i have been shopping for some great things.. and the other day sandi and i spent like the whole day together shopping for some super great things and like going out to eat and going to the movies and stuff..
i want to play some mexican choo choo..
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Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
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| Subject: | =) |
| Time: | 11:09 am. |
| Mood: |  tired but refreshed... | | Music: | straylight run. |
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i love the way it smells outside.. i love the way it feels outside.. i love fall weather..
so ill be switching roomates again soon.. as soon as the people that need to be in the same place are in the same place long enough.. its exciting i guess..
i really just want to go home and hang out for a little while.. maybe go walking or something.. especially because it feels so good outside..
today im tired..
it feels like it should be some day other than tuesday.. like thursday or something.. for some odd reason, it just feels later than it is..
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Sunday, October 2nd, 2005
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| Time: | 4:53 pm. |
| Mood: | excited with a side of drained. | | Music: | um.. shania twain/coldplay/adam sandler.. haha. |
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wow.. over the past couple of weeks ive realized things.. maybe things that i didnt want to realize.. maybe things i did.. maybe i just dont know..
i remember growing up.. how it happened.. how it changed me.. how much trouble i got in.. the exact moment that it happened.. and who it was with.. if things didnt happen how they did, i wouldnt be where i am right now.. everything happens for a reason..
im not the same person that i was.. everyone is changing.. everyday.. every second.. every moment.. people change.. relationships evolve.. things just happen..
yesterday i did something that at one point i thought id never get the chance to do.. i thought that it was a hopeless cause..
it made me happy to be able to have that experience.. it made me happy to have that experience with who i had it with.. it was so fun.. and i liked it..
i love you.
=)
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Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
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| Time: | 4:16 pm. |
| Mood: | lazy. | | Music: | none. |
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so much do i love you!
for some odd reason, typing that made me feel like drawing a flower.. how odd? lol..
today i have a headache.. and not so much do i feel good in the stomach area either..
i only worked for like a little over an hour today.. i liked typing..
i cant wait until friday! yay!
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Monday, September 26th, 2005
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| Time: | 4:44 pm. |
| Mood: |  lonely and thoughtful. | | Music: | jacks mannequin. |
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i feel like this past week or so has been so stressful.. maybe because it has..
i talked to erin and sandi today on the phone before coming back to school.. and i took a calculus test.. it was way harder than i think i expected it to be..
i ate some wendys after buying some cookies and crackers and before i came back to school..
i ate some pizza after being here for a little while..
i miss you.. (and that is directed at more than one person)
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Wednesday, September 21st, 2005
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| Time: | 11:50 pm. |
| Mood: |  hyper. | | Music: | .......................... |
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everytime the phone rings my heart stops for a second..
i just hope that its going to be you..
what you told me to do.. it works.. it really does.. you knew what you were talking about when you thought that whole scheme up.. lol..
im too hyper now..
la la la la la la love means.. i love you!
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Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
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| Time: | 9:17 pm. |
| Mood: |  stressedsad&tryingtobestrong. | | Music: | maroon 5. |
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so im back at school..
it feel so weird because nicholes not here..
so much stress..
ive cried so much in the past two days that my eyes burn..
i cant wait to go home..
i just want to lay in my bed.. with snuffles..
i hope to see erin this weekend..
i wonder how my brother is doing..
i cant wait to go to ohio..
i cant wait until january..
i cant wait until february..
i cant wait until june..
today began a life for me that i never thought id experience first hand.. i mean.. ive experienced it close.. but never FIRST HAND..
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| Time: | 12:16 pm. |
| Mood: | devestated... | | Music: | the used/blink/incubus/coldplay. |
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so today is not a good day..
my eyes hurt from crying..
the tears just keep coming.. out of nowhere.. and it hurts..
it hurts so bad..
i have to hold it together..
i have to be strong..
theres so much to do..
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Tuesday, September 13th, 2005
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| Time: | 7:24 pm. |
| Mood: | so sad.. but excited too!. | | Music: | blink 182. |
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so here i am.. forever at the point of tears.. and living with the fact that they may spill out at any given moment.. without warning.. but with great reason..
as much as i try not to think about it.. its still there.. i cant change it..
nichole is leaving on friday.. so maybe ill be getting a new roomate? who knows.. at this point, for the time being at least, i havent the energy to care.. theres too much other stuff going on to worry about it.. its just added stress that i really dont need..
this weekend is going to be good.. the days that follow may very well be some of the hardest days in my life as of the moment.. i can tell that theyre going to be devastating.. i can tell by the way that im feeling now, when the time hasnt even come yet..
all i can do is try to look forward to the days to come.. the good ones that i know are coming.. they seem so far away.. i hope so much that the time passes quickly.. in december i begin building for a new life.. one with something new added to it.. and i am so excited..
watch out people ::especially those that are good friends of mine::.. something shocking comes your way..
YAY! im super excited.. =)
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